Freedom from Ego

Freedom from Ego

Waste time not resources.

Ego is an activity not an entity the ultimate bodily deception constantly struggling, confining, tempting, and imprisoning my mind. Ego is the master of disguise and just an illusion of individual existence separate from other aspects of creation. Ego compulsively thinks infiltrating thoughts and feelings of self as my own spiritual energy. My spirit has always been and will always be whereas my human bodily organism and ego has a beginning and an end so ego naturally believes it is the human being and must fight for itself in the world of limited time. Living in ego is the norm and seeks safety in numbers; it goes unrecognized as the source of much that could be classified as insane behavior in everyday life. Ego is analogous to subconscious and a conscious state of mind and it is truly the con in conscious projecting perceptions of external enemies and brilliance of self. Intelligently ego creates and then blames the same devils, it is bold, defies superiority, authority, and divinity. Ego has an inability to recognize itself or to account for the consequences of what it is doing. Ego can be something about ourselves that we don’t want to know, or admit, or something we will deny even exists until it’s too late to do anything about it. Ego can become our driving force or the reason we put up with the blood, sweat, and tears. Ego can become our addiction shared with approval junkies to show how good, attractive, generous, funny, wild, and clever we are. Listening quietly I hear it begging for the approval of others and please think I am special. Ego is most noticeable when it entices lies, stealing, and even killing in the name of to maintain it’s supremacy over the presence of the real here and now. Ego fabricates forgiveness for the blind eyes of heads held high and for the preachers and healers veiled in the cloak of love and light that live in lies of arrogant singularity, egotistic consumption and trendy waste. I experience ego in my sense of time, convenience, ownership, status, pride, immunity, uniqueness, and superior future existence. My ego besieges knowledge, awareness, accountability, and acceptance of self, spirit, and the present moment in unity with creation. Ego is my ultimate challenge, insidiously reemerging, always tempting, difficult to detect, and so easy to ignore but ignorance of the flaw is no excuse.

I try to think in we not me and in plurals like us and them, slowing down to moments of time, constantly asking why, and becoming (not doing but an alert seeing) consciously aware of my thoughts, emotions, actions and consequences in real time. I question my motives through spiritual views absent of time and space and maintain a reference point positioned in abyss. I am shifting from thinking about to awareness of, gradually growing stronger, and finding intelligence, wisdom and the true meaning of life. Through conscious awareness human egotistic emotions and thoughts are becoming depersonalized and I am recognizing the impersonal nature from my spiritual point of view. My personal life, history, and ego are becoming secondary and no longer rule the domain of my consciousness or define my identity. My spirit is the timeless brightness of presence, my body the human finite candle of embodiment and my ego is just the flickering of my flame.

JimRaab